MY CALL TO WORSHIP AND SERVICE
It happened on April the 5th of the year 1985. It was Good Friday. My life had been in shambles. I was a small building contractor and business was bad. With a wife and three children to support, no income, recalling of my bond looming and me living by selling off my tools and other valuables, now and then a small one-man job… I sank to the bottom of a pit of despair by allowing myself flashes of escape from reality in surrendering myself to the clutches of alcohol abuse.
Easter of 1985 was looming, but the church and the things precious to a believer was not even in the back of my mind anymore. The one day was as good or bad as the next. However, with things coming to breaking point and depression slowly squeezing the last drops of dignity out of my life, I begin to experience a very strange urge. My mind showed me pictures of my upbringing in the church, of Jesus and his Love and of the Bible, the eternal word of God.
Then I made up my mind. I bought myself a Bible, but I couldn’t bring myself to read it…yet. But on Good Friday of 1985 my life changed forever. I bought myself a few bottles of cheap wine and got ready to start reading that Bible. I didn’t know where to start, so I opened the Bible at the most logical place…Genesis One Verse One… “In the beginning…”
Sadly, as I read I emptied the one bottle and opened another one, and when I got to my senses I woke from a stupor on the floor, the Bible laying one side and the bottle and glass on the other side of me. I felt as if I saw myself from outside my body and that pathetic picture made me start crying. I couldn’t stop myself. When the crying finally drained me of all emotion I washed my face, put the glass and empty bottle away and this time surrendered myself to that Bible.
I was in a daze that whole Easter Weekend, had some small jobs that kept me busy afterwards, but all the time when I was free, it was me and that Bible. It was more than a month later when I realised I never drank any alcohol since Good Friday and I was busy reading deep into the New Testament…
I am sorry that I cannot testify that life became a fairy-tale for me after that dramatic conversion on Good Friday. No, life was still the one hurdle after the other. I was later ejected from that house, had to store my belongings at a neighbour’s, and moved in to stay with my family in one of two rooms of my brother’s council flat. From there my life was like a circus, moving around from the one address to the next. Currently the wife and I are staying with one of the daughters.
In 1988 I joined the church that my wife and children attended, but some hankering in me drew me back to the church of my childhood where I joined the fraternity shortly after Nelson Mandela was released from prison. In that church I found myself spiritually. I matured tremendously working as an elder and knew that the particular church was part of the greater plan God had for my life. But a new world was calling me, and that realm laid outside the borders of that particular church or even Christianity or any other religion, but in Greater Theism.
On the 22nd of September 1997 (the day of Yom Kippur) I decided to leave the church and Christianity and religion, to start preparing for my ultimate calling as the Ambassador of God in the end-times, a second Elijah, in order to prepare the Way for the Return of Jesus Christ. Ever since Good Friday in 1985 I was under the Tutorship and Guidance of a special Angel of God, but after I joined Greater Theism, the opening up of the Spiritual Bible started to increase dramatically.
I have two very distinct personalities, let’s call them my alter egos. The one is this one flying the banner for Belief, of which Theism and Atheism are the main hemispheres, with a generous helping of Agnosticism on the equator. My aim is to organize the world’s religions into one greater Family.
Christianity in all its different denominations and sects constitute the Body of One Jesus Christ on earth. However, all the religions or mindsets since Adam till the Last Trumpet constitute the Body of God in all its diversity. I’m under no illusions that this calling will never be an easy one, but the Lord of Hosts told me: “Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit!”
My other personality flies the banner for Divine Science and Secular Atheism, which means a total refrainment from any religious activities, whether it be from Theism, Atheism or even Agnosticism.
Like I am two counterparts of which the one represents Belief and the other Secular Atheism, every other human on earth has those alter egos. The one side is a spiritual human while the other is a secular human. The spiritual human is connected to one of many God-links and is drawn into one of many religions, while the atheist ego is secular, the physical person that visits the doctor, dentist, goes to school, college etcetera and work in the secular domain and very importantly, governs secular humanity.
My calling is to separate spiritual and secular humanity. Again, no easy task but global peace rests on those separate pillars of theism and atheism. Every human being has to be taught the paramount importance of separating the two mind-sets. Unlike the spiritual side of humanity where the government is based on the rules of the holy book, the physical side of humanity is ruled by the Golden Rule.
I cannot, of course, explain everything in this one article, but I hope that you will also visit the other pages of the site as they become available. Both my alter egos are represented on this site. I am not ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, but I am also a proud secular atheist and I aim to keep a distance between the spiritual and the secular, for the sake of Peace.